I woke up today and none of it felt real. It all felt like some awful dream. I went to bed pregnant, and woke up alone. The worst is that I lost my partner because of all this. He left me because I wanted to keep the baby. It doesn’t seem fair that I have to carry this burden all on my own, everywhere I go, and he can act like nothing happened. 

I cant sleep anymore. Whenever I close my eyes I flash back to when I woke up from surgery. The completely confusing first moments of consciousness are all I remember now. It was in those moments that I realized my baby was really gone, and I was truly alone for the first time in 10 weeks.